What Do You Do When Life is Hard?
By Manuela Domingos
For the past few weeks, I’ve been relentlessly applying for jobs to no avail. Many can testify to the hassle and chaos of job searching.
“Go in person,” they tell you, only to be redirected online when you get there. You’re ready for the interview, extremely prepared, but the minute you get there you lose your confidence. Perhaps you send a follow up e-mail, but don’t get a reply in return.
This has been me for the past few weeks.
After an amazing vacation overseas, I came back to face the responsibilities of adulthood. Truly, I don’t really have to work right now, but I want the experience. I want to save money to go on vacation by the end of the year, and I don’t want to bother my parents for money.
The first week back to school, I had about three interviews aligned for me. All appeared to be promising, the pay seemed great, and I was more than ready to get the interviews over and done with to secure a position.
The first interview went well, but it wasn’t the best. I never received a call back from them after the ordeal. The same day, I got a phone call from another company who was eager to interview me. This interview went well, and I was confident I would be offered a position. But, after the interview, I never heard from them either. Then, I received a call from the same company that interviewed me the first time. They wanted to wanted to interview me for another position, at a different branch. After the interview, I didn’t hear from them again.
I felt defeated. I know that an interview doesn’t guarantee a spot, but the prospects seemed promising. God was finally working in my favor, I thought to myself.
To make matters more difficult, someone close to me slowly began to become distant and school has, of course, added its own spoon of stress to my plate.
Somehow, I felt like I was losing everything around me.
With school this semester and other things I want to accomplish outside of school, I know that I am not where I want to be right now in life.
But I’ve come to train myself to have nothing. I acknowledge that, as hard as it may be, I must be completely okay with that. Maybe it’s just not my time, and maybe He has something better in store for me, and maybe I will finally have that breakthrough when He sees fit.
Right now, I just have to wait and trust in Him.
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